Confessions of a 20 Year Old Who Is About to Move Away from Home

So it's officially 15 days until I leave for Florida. 15 days... by this time the whimsy feeling of "I am a Disney intern" has slightly worn off, and I have now arrived at the feeling of  "ok.. ok I'm moving to Florida... 1,188.45 miles away from my home... I know exactly zero people in Florida... what in the world am I going to do in Florida?!" In other words reality has knocked on my door, punched me in the face, and is now smirking as I lay sprawled on the ground grasping my stinging face. 

We've all been here, am I right?

It's the feeling of new beginnings. 

Now I can choose to stay on the cold hard ground (ohhhh ohhhh oh trouble, trouble, trouble!!!) Please excuse my T-Swift interruption, but this is truly how my mind works. Anyways, I can curl up in my safe haven, hide away from the world, never experience the discomfort of change. But wouldn't that be silly? I truly appreciate when I get the opportunity to tell someone about my internship because when I see the look on their faces, it reminds me of how blessed I am to have this chance of a lifetime. It reminds me that I have been given an incredible gift, and how dare I squander it? How dare I even imagine not going? 

So... I openly admit that I am scared. I'm scared to open this new chapter in my life. But doesn't that mean that this is a pivotal moment in my life? If I do this, it could change my life for the better. 

As I lay here, contemplating these next six months I have ahead of me, I am grateful for the Lord's sweet words rushing to my heart. Deuteronomy 31:8:

"The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged."

I may not be able to take my parents, my own bed, my sweet baby puppy Beatrice, or even 90% of my own clothes... but I am able to take God with me. Granted, I still have a little bit of queasiness, I am human after all. But my home, my true home, is with the Lord. Wherever He is, there will my home be also. 

So if you are about to embark on a new adventure, I encourage you to look at Deuteronomy 31:8 every day. Shoot, look at it every minute if you have to. Just know that you don't have to be scared or anxious. Be excited!! Be overjoyed! You have so many blessings on the horizon. Run towards them, never looking back.