I woke up this morning with the best feeling I have felt in a very, very long time. I woke up today knowing that, somehow, everything is going to be okay.
Lately, I have been feeling very lost. Hopeless. Depressed. Just really blah. There isn't a reason for it. Many are thinking "she's in the happiest place on earth; how can she feel like that?" I am truly grateful for my opportunities here at Disney, but that doesn't protect me from the Devil's ability to play mind games with me.
Today I feel renewed. Although my future is unclear, I know it's going to be absolutely amazing. My God is an awesome God, and He has plans to give me a bright future. I was praying, just thanking God for reminding me that He is with me. He hasn't left. He hasn't forgotten. And I felt Him give me a special task today. It's a pretty great one.
He challenged me to let Him use me today. I want to help someone. I want to let others see Jesus in me. Not in some weird way. I want a chance to be kind to someone. I want to build someone up, not tear them down. I want to leave someone with the impression of, "wow that girl is different." I'm up for that challenge. I am so up for it.
Friends, God is so good. He is just amazing. I can't believe that I, who am so unworthy of His mercy and love, get to be pardoned of all my sins and spend eternity with Him. I just can't express enough how in love with God I am. I have never experienced this... relief. Relief from what? I don't know... life, I guess. Knowing that I am in the arms of my Savior gives me a peace that no worldly thing can give.
If you are feeling lost, I encourage you to stop. Stop thinking. Stop running. Just open your heart and ask God to give you a big hug. He won't refuse you. Ever. No matter what you have done, no matter where you are, He will always help you. He will always welcome you home. You don't have to scramble anymore, trying to pick up the shattered pieces of your life. God can clean that up, but you have to let Him. Just step back, and say "God, I've got nothing left. I'm tired of running, tired of hurting. Please help me." God has such a beautiful life planned for his kiddos. He wants you to live life of fulfillment. He doesn't want you to go to work dreading what the day will bring. He wants you to spring out of bed delighted to greet the day.
You don't have to feel lost anymore. Just look up. He's right there, ready and waiting.
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