Dust Bunnies

Wow....

I feel like I’m standing in an old abandoned castle, surrounded by cobwebs, dust bunnies, and falling apart furniture...but also there’s so much hidden beauty.

It’s been a hot minute, huh? Only five years! And I can tell you why it’s been five years since I’ve stepped...foot? Finger? Onto this page.

I ran away.

Yeah. Quite literally. I ran away from everything. From myself, from my family, friends, church...but most heartbreakingly from my Heavenly Father. I had given up hope. I gave up on His promises. I figured He didn’t care. He didn’t see me. I was a forgotten dust bunny under the bed. My heart’s desires were crumbled up prices of paper with empty longings.

My heart became hardened. And I don’t mean, ugh this is a tough nut to crack! I mean a hateful hardened heart. The kind where I looked at my loving parents and saw two humans who wanted to stomp out any joy in my life. I looked at my church and saw a prison. I looked at God and saw nothing. Everything looked dark. I felt nothing. So I decided to do whatever it took to feel again.

This story is probably familiar to a lot of people. Boy meets girl, right? Well I met a boy. And 7 days later I moved in with him. And we ran away. Cut ties. Caution to the wind. And I wound up moving from my hometown, everything I’d ever known..to a small town in South Carolina.

I became a different person, one I don’t even recognize. One who I hope to never cross paths with again. My moral compass was put in a trunk and thrown into the ocean. I lost all hope of ever living in the light again. I knew God was there, don’t get me wrong..I believed in God. I pretended I didn’t, but I truly knew God was out there. I just didn’t believe He cared about me.

But then one day, two days before Christmas in 2016, I got a knock on my door. And my life changed forever.

So...if you are a fellow dust bunny..feeling lost, dirty, forgotten...hang in there. Stay with me here, and see what God is willing to do for His kids.

 I’m so glad to be back. If you’re reading my stories for the first time, welcome. I’m so glad you’re here. I’m so glad we’re all here, whether you’re feeling like a dust bunny or a prized trophy.

Spoiler alert: we are ALL prized trophies. YOU are God’s masterpiece. And I hope that through my story, you might be able to see that.

Stay tuned. I’ll be back soon<3